🐻🦊💭 - abridged timeline thoughts

[lovebalance]

 written back in june, 2023:

• • 2016-2017: renjun has a crush on haechan but to haechan renjun is just some guy™️. renjun really likes haechan a lot and is trying to figure out how to be closer to him etc but again to haechan, renjun was literally just some dude. and him and mark were in that like one-sided situationship thing that blew up in their faces during the summer of 2017. but renjun still had his crush and like, wanted to be close to haechan for sure. and probably just in a close friends way etc. (16/17year old renjun who could not handle making eye contact with haechan for his life my god). 
  • 2018: this is when the haechanrenjun best friends/soulmates vibes literally begin to start. the 00z vlive is a good one to watch for that year they were like, doing bits together and everything. but it was for real like best friends-isms along with renjun trying to suppress his crush on haechan and FAILING REAL BAD!!!! he loves physical contact and stuff, he literally could not leave bro alone. (honestly renjun loves to bother haechan when you look back at old dream content like my dude was obsessed?) anyways it was like during 2018 since they got closer haechan started doing his physical love language back to renjun which i also think is a huge factor since i feel like haechan is the type to have more feelings about someone (in this case renjun) when he realizes that renjun is willing to return that language. so it was just growing and them being friends and YET!!!!
  • 2019: watch out haechan because that crush on renjun is coming!!!!! like okay so early dream 2019 content is like still 2018 best friends vibe etc, but when we get to later 2019….haechan. LOL i genuinely think that the crush on renjun snuck up on him, especially after boom era. but when i say later 2019 i mean like during tds1 prep and everything. i think that spending more time with the other for dongren just made that feeling of “i like this guy” increase but in that loser crush way. and like, they shared a hotel room for tds1, and they hadn’t been roommates before then. i truly think that was the final nail…haechan bothering renjun as his roommate and finding renjun so amusing and cute and being like “hm…i really like how renjun plays along with me” and then probably thought things like “i want to see renjun more and more..”
  • 2020: BOOM!!!! HAECHAN HAS A CRUSH AND DOESN’T KNOW WHAT TO DO!!! and it’s like he probably was avoiding any crushes on nct members or whatever after that 2017 mark fight situation so he really had no clue how to proceed. it’s crazy because in 2020 its like, the roles had flipped and haechan was the one who could not maintain eye contact while renjun was the one who was like “look at me in the eyes” and everything LMFAO!!! ridin/reload era was crazy for him, the 🐻🦊 dream vs dream is important history here. he literally couldn’t even look renjun in the eye. and he also was probably bringing renjun up randomly (my proof is that one clip when he brought up what renjun likes to eat during kick it era and the mc and other 127 members were like ??? okay..) like what a loser /positive. anyways what i’m saying is haechan had his crush not knowing that renjun still had a crush on him. and renjun probably didn’t know. so it was like two dudes who had crushes but one had been used to it for years and the other was staying up at night trying to figure out how to handle this shit.
  • 2021: the year of dongren. also it’s funny like, so throughout the first half of 2021 renjun and haechan were just insaane about each other, hot sauce era was insane. but like for hello future suddenly renjun was the nct tsundere of the year. so that’s why there was probably something that changed between hot sauce and hello future, and obviously it was a great one. how do i know? the sinister hello future comeback live that made me this insane in the first place. haechan was not in his right mind (positive) and it made me not in my right mind. thanks.

  
  

  i need more time to study 2022 - ongoing so yeah anyways i’m sorry to anyone who reads this. i have no other words besides those. clearly if dongren isn’t real i’m killing myself.