well, that’s everything. [journal entry]

[lovebalance]

i have not written a journal, like a real one, in quite a bit. mainly because things don’t really happen to me? and also i’m just never sure what to say plus my memory is shit! but if you want to read this one, feel free! 

 

also i typed this on my phone, so there’s that. i should get a keyboard for my ipad or something but i wouldn’t use it much. anyways here we go…

 

life:

 

i graduated university? that’s quite a big deal, as i thought i would be trapped in undergrad forever. well, i didn’t even think i’d make it to university anyways, so i didn’t plan ahead past 18 years old for anything. feeling very plankton “i didn’t think i’d get this far…” image right now.

 

i still am not sure exactly what i want for a career, but i got into my university’s graduate school program. masters student incoming? so maybe that’s also why graduation didn’t feel real to me since i’m going to be a student again anyways? maybe 2 more years will help me figure what exactly is going on around me…maybe?

 

also, i’m going to be 23 soon. time is an endless cycle!!!

 

music:

 

did you guys know i’m an nct dream fan? going to their concert this past month was one of the most stressful and stress-releasing events of recent years. i managed to get really close to the stage with pit, which i never expected. i had so much fun, and have been going through withdrawals without them…if they have another concert i’m definitely going. but PLEASE let it be seated this time, i’m too old for this…

 

i think their comeback will be in july? i wish sm gave them more time to like,,,sit down? sm loves to squeeze schedules together and rush everything like goddamn? i would think a summer comeback would make sense for august (anniversary album…) but who can say? anyways yeah.

 

aespa is back!! i enjoyed this mini way more than girls!! each song was soo good and at first i was scared i wouldn’t like spicy, but after i listened again i realized it was because i had just woken up and not even put my headphones on. spicy is so good and fun! i wish the choreography was a bit more impactful but it’s very fun! i can’t pick between salty&sweet and thirsty for my favorite b-side? such a good mini, thank you sm…

 

speaking of lacking choreography, le sserafim also came back! i liked unforgiven though, i think the use of the sample was so interesting, i don’t know i just like when songs do interesting thing (i.e when red velvet use old classic samples like in birthday and feel my rhythm)! however, i feel like the album could have been a bit more cohesive? maybe a reordering of the tracks. not sure, but yeah, good stuff.

 

media (tv, books, etc):

 

yellowjackets!! is so!!! good!!! i love shows like this, i wish more shows were like this! i can’t express it well enough besides yellowjackets is fantastic and everyone should like, watch it.

 

i’ve always wanted to write a fic with this kind of, stranded by a disaster setting but i’ve never been able to figure out how exactly. maybe i should rewatch the wilds s1 and parts of yellowjackets s1 and go from there.

 

also, have you all read this spear cuts through water by simon jimenez? i really think you should! it’s so fucking incredible and beautiful! i read that book and finished it back in march and have not stopped thinking about it. 

 

i honestly think it ruined books for me forever because i can’t find another book as beautiful to get sucked into and it’s killing me!!!! if anyone who has read this book has anything else like it, please let me know. i have a need…

 

writing:

 

i don’t have any ideas. save me. i think i should use one of those prompt generators or something at this point, i have never really used them but i can see why they help.

 

okay, that’s it! 🩷